Dreaming, planning... & maybes

"This is my dream, and I'll decide where it goes from here"

 alice in wonderland - tim burton movie  

I saw this quote on another blog a while back and I love it. Of course I have seen the movie but I don't remember movie quotes like some people... music lyrics from forever ago yes movies not so much. 

 I have talked big talk on this blog before about starting an etsy shop, and working with my step dad or talking about getting back into sewing and now I have taken on Paparazzi jewelry; but in all honesty I have always had that etsy shop in the back of my mind. Why? Because I love to create, to dream & plan. I enjoy the creative process. The tediousness of handbeading something, of crocheting lovies (I'm working on 2 now... slowly but surely they will get done) but what I don't like is how my uptight - yep I finally admitted it - self starts nit-picking at every little thing. From color, to a slight flaw to thinking nobody else will like it. 

I worry about failure. I worry about wasting money - legit for a one income family. I worry about disappointing others.

I have all these supplies upstairs in a very unorderly... well mess of an office/spare bedroom that are going to waste. Therefore already a waste of money. 

I want to just jump in. 

I want to share things I create with y'all, with etsy buyers, with whoever wants to see. 

But of course I'm scared. 

I posted that crappy cell pic of some wine glass charms that I sat & redid last night after Punkin went to bed. Are the perfect? No. Are they handmade? Yep. I have to remember the charm of handmade is it doesn't have to be flawless, it has charm & handmade appeal. 

So I'm working on a couple more sets of these. I have some small crocheted items done from a while back. and some other things I'm going to pull out and work on. I'm going to do this. 

I'm going to suck it up and live this dream. 

I know it is taking on a lot especially with Miss Munchkin making her arrival late summer, but that's what I like about having my own shop. It is my inventory, my time, my shop. 

I'm having a hard time with jumping into Paparazzi - I kinda regret signing up so quickly and diving in, and I know my upline "depends" on my success some too - I don't like that kinda pressure. I will try and keep up with it too but we will see what happens... 

I'm thinking of calling my etsy shop Moody Mama. 

Is that catchy/memorable enough? I know it flows well with the blog which makes me happy :) & this way I can carry multiple items covering from crochet to handbeaded to sewing eventually maybe. 

I'm considering contacting some people about giveaways & guest posting - something else that scares me - when I get enough stock ready & a shop opened up!

Any readers interesting in hosting a review/giveaway??? Comment or email me!